Ichinose SS: I love you too much…
From what Hoshinomiya-sensei said, I could already deduce that the special exam will be about how well we can conform to the rules that have been in place since we first entered school, and Ayanokoji-kun's advice made me even more sure of this.
Ever since the first day of our alliance, both of our classes have deliberately kept their distance from one-another.
If Ryuen-kun tried to use his classmates to cause some disruption among us, being seen together would only invite suspicion on both of our classes at once.
Whether it was thanks to that precaution, or because Ryuen-kun simply changed his methods, I don’t know. But we managed to live an ordinary school life for a week without incident.
But even then, to me, that single week felt unbearably long.
The time I couldn’t see Ayanokoji-kun. Even though we kept in touch through our phones, not being able to meet face-to-face, not being able to feel each others’ breath—my heart screamed in protest.
That’s why, when the special exam ended today, I invited him to the gym, regardless of how the exam went, so I could spend time with him.
On the way back, recharged with happiness after finally being with him again, Ayanokoji-kun mentioned wanting to invite new members to come to the gym. Though his intentions were obvious, I didn't think it was a bad idea. If it meant more opportunities to interact with Kanzaki-kun and others, then surely our class could only grow stronger.
“Then I’ll invite them without hesitation.”
Ayanokoji-kun replied seeing my welcoming attitude.
“Okay, thank you. That kind of support from you, Ayanokoji-kun, makes me really happy.”
With each step, we drew closer and closer to the dorms.
It will soon be time to say goodbye to him.
Our connection doesn't have to be deep—
But still...
Nervously, I let the back of my left hand brush against the back of Ayanokoji-kun’s right hand.
He didn’t pull away. My fingers grazed against his, almost intertwining…
Realizing the urge quickly rising within me, I hurriedly pulled back my hand.
“S-sorry... I'm sorry. I just... felt like I wanted to touch you... even though we're just friends.”
No. I can’t be the only one consumed by this feeling.
Until the day comes when Ayanokoji-kun reaches out for me as well, I have to be by his side as just an equal.
I never knew that loving someone too much could be this painful.
That was the thought that filled me, as I gazed deep into Ayanokoji-kun’s eyes—
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